My Dirty Little Secrets...

Confession time... I need to get some stuff off my chest HAHA... 


I ate most of the kids Halloween candy, and I don't feel bad about it...

After I put the kids down for a nap, I will sometimes nap too!!!

I hate watching football... Yes, I like the Hawks, but I have too many other things on my mind to sit there and watch a game that... I will confess... I have no clue what the rules are.

I secretly hope that my kids wont ever play soccer because I see all those moms sitting outside in the rain and wind... not my cup of tea!

I know every word of " You've Got Mail" and I watch it when Kyle has a game later at night... almost weekly.

I own 6 pairs of black yoga pants (all different fits and lengths), 1 pair of grey ones, and I hate jeans.

My boys can drive me to the point of tears at times with their pushing, hitting, and attitudes.

My boys also also make me laugh so hard that I cry... hey are funny little buggers!!

Sometimes I cant sleep at night because I am worrying about something, and then the next day, I cant remember what I was worrying about... weird.

I drink 2-3 cups of coffee a day.

If there are chips in the house then I will eat them... so I only buy the spicy ones that Kyle likes so that I don't eat them.

I have gone all day and then realized that I hadn't brushed my teeth... YUCK!

I sometimes miss the freedom that we had before we had kids...

I still rock Luke to sleep and feed him a bottle... yes, he is a year and a half... so what!

I check on Blake at night before I go to bed just to watch him sleep for a few seconds.  He is so peaceful...

I hate diet food, but have tried it all.

LOVE Zumba with C&C Zumba Studio.  I shake it ghetto fabulous style... but I am still shaking it, and thats what matters!

I know that I talk to much sometimes... I catch myself doing it, and sometimes, I just cant stop!  Whoops :)

I have a sewing machine that I got for Christmas last year, and haven't ever used it.  I want to so badly, but just haven't.

I really want to be one of those crazy "preppers" for the end of the world.  

I wish I would have gone to college.

I worry about my parents a lot... health, happiness... 

I miss my Grandpa Jump so much... I really wish he could have met Luke.

If I ever had a girl, I wanted to name her Ginger after my Grandpa's sister... I love Aunt Ginger!  She is a very special lady that always knows the right thing to say.  Love her!

I am writing this right now instead of figuring out what we are going to have for dinner... oops!!

My boys are my world ... but thats no secret :)

Well, that feels good... get some stuff off my chest!  HAHA Maybe it will help with the insomnia that I have had lately??   HAHA...Guessing not :)

Glad its almost Friday!!!

If Shoes Could Talk...

They have taken him everywhere... he has had them over a year and they are his first choice everyday.  They have been to the beach, to the mountains and seen many days in our back yard.  They were there when he learned how to ride his bike, and when he fell off it.  They have seen hockey pucks, and kicked rocks, and jumped in puddles of water.  They are covered in in his blood, sweat and tears.

I have tried to throw them out, and they always find their way back into our house.  I have tried to buy new ones, but they just aren't the same.  He calls them his "Church shoes" because someone has made a joke that they are "holy"  They are so much more then a shoe... to him, they are comfort, and something that he loves.  Someday he will outgrow them to the point that they hurt, and he will chose not to wear them, but for now, he can wear them as much as he wants... although, there might not be anything left of them soon...

He is always in them...

Summertime pastimes...

We had a really fun summer!  We had some amazing camping trips, a successful garden, some really fun play time in the yard, and great evenings watching the sunset over the mountains. I love that summer brings bare feet, dirty faces, and a slight change in our daily schedule. Luke was at an age this year where he was able to really keep up with everyone else, and that allowed us all to play together.  Water fights, bike rides, hikes, baseball, hockey, bunny rabbits, swings and many more wonderful things graced us this summer.  It was enchanting to watch and be apart of, and I can't wait for next summer!  Alas, the time has come where I am enjoying the leaves changing color, and breathing in the cool crisp air.  Time to say "goodbye" to summer, and "hello" to the holiday season!!!

*** I am not too upset... I LOVE the holidays!!!!


A few fun memories from this summer...

Crabbing with my parents...

He wont fall asleep in a car but he passes out in the boat!

Doing fun Samish things with Kyle's family in Anacortes...

Blake loved this!!!

Celebrated our anniversary at Deception Pass... BEAUTIFUL!!

Fishing...

Blake thinks its a keeper!!

Hiking

Taking a rest with Grandma!

Playing in the sand...

This is 6:30 am when I took Lucy out to go to the bathroom...Pajamas and all!!

Sick baby at the ocean.

And just good o'll outdoor fun!!!

you should have seen our water bill!!!

Someday, we will be glad to let him mow the yard!!!

Blake realized that if you go from cement to grass on the scooter, you go over the handlebars :)

He Loves to roll around on my parents dog!!

yummmm

Our water baby!!!

Tech Savvy Baby?

I wouldn't consider my kids tech savvy... well kind of, but not really.  They know how to swipe their finger on the ipad, and how to push the buttons on the apps.  Blake actually knows how to find the pictures on phones and ipads, so watch out if you have something on there that you don't want him to see :)  BUT... They don't play video games or computer games.  Blake would rather be outside then watching tv, but he has taken a rather impulse liking to Dora lately.  Never the less, his primary interests are those that are outside... hockey, dirt, bikes, baseballs.  that's how it has always been, and I will fight to make sure it stays that way.  But, since Luke is a little more exposed to it then Blake was, I think that we need to be a little more careful about what we are showing him...

I set him on our bed, and he grabbed Kyle's phone off the nightstand, tucked himself into bed and acted like he knew what he was doing... well, maybe he did??

I know that there needs to be a balance... if you never expose them to any of it, then they are going to be behind because, lets face it, this is how the world works.  But, if you over expose them, then they become little zombies and don't know what dirt tastes like.  I think that our kids, for now, have a pretty good balance between these two worlds, but I remember getting Nintendo at like 10, and it was a big deal!  Now, kids have DS's and ipads at 2 and 3... slow down babies... I am not going to be able to keep up!!

I will admit that we bought Blake a Kindle Fire for his 4th birthday... very closely monitored of course!  We have blocked everything except the educational stuff and he still needs our help to use it... I bet, not for long!

Still, these two love the smell of the great outdoors best, and so do their parents!!

Violated...

Friday was our first date night in a while.  My parents had the kids, and we were off to see Jason Aldean and Jake Owen... GREAT CONCERT!  We had a lot of fun, and it kind of brought us back to that feeling of "before kids"  we used to go to concerts all the time, and now, not so much... but for good reasons :)

After the concert, we were walking to my car *side-note... we decided to take my car because it was easier to park.  Kyle's big truck doesn't always fin in spaces or the garages* and we notice all these people upset, and I see that their car was broken into.  I stopped and asked the girl if she was okay because she was parked right next to us.  She said that she was and that they had already called the police.  Kyle had already unlocked our car and got in while I was talking to the girl, and I hear him say " Oh $*#@, they got our car too"  I ran over to the passenger door, looked in the glove-box, and my wallet was gone, and then I looked behind the seat where I stashed my purse, and that was gone too... I was really angry... then I saw it... my anger quickly turned into hurt.  I got this ball in my throat, and my eyes welled up with tears.

As I looked at the back seat of my SUV, I saw that they had broken the window on Luke's side of the car inwards; they had crawled all over the back two car seats, breaking them, and digging shards of broken glass into them.  They were destroyed.  They somehow, in their frenzy, stepped or knelt on Luke's favorite book and broke the spine and tore the pages out. - Let the tears start rolling- I went over to Kyle, and he was trying to comfort me as much as he could, but I just had to cry.  You mess with my things, and I can handle that.  You mess with my kids, and you just broke my heart.

The cops came, and we got the police report taken care of.  It was a busy night for them... at that time, I was 1 of 40 reported car break ins in the surrounding parking lots.

Mitch called to see how the concert was and I told him what had happened.  He was there in 15 minutes.  He took pictures for us because our phones were dead, he brought leather work gloves and garbage bags, and cleaned the big pieces of glass out of my car, and put some plastic over my seat so I didn't get poked with any little pieces on the way home, and he even cleaned the glass out of the other peoples cars.  I called Tammy while I was carying... doing that is almost like drunk dialing, and they cant even understand you HAHA, But she was there to listen and help calm me down.  I sure have a great family :)

I called the insurance companies.  Mitch cleaned out the cars, Tammy gave me another mom to cry to about my babies car seats, and Kyle reassured me that it would all be okay while he called to cancel all our cards.  What a night.. I went from complete excitement to complete heartache in about 30 seconds - talk about a whirlwind!  We didn't get home until 1am - completely exhausted.

Saturday, bright and early I was up.  I went out to see the damage in the light and it just upset me all over again.  We got the shop vac out and cleaned out all the glass... It completely covered the car from front to back.  I was amazed at how far that stuff flew.  I got the car-seats out, cleaned up the kids' stuff that was scattered everywhere and wiped everything down.  The glass is like little barbed slivers and I vacuumed for about an hour and I think that some is still in there.  Maybe I will have to have it detailed.  We ate some eggs and then we were off to target... new car-seat time.  We had a total of 3 car-seats.  We had one in the truck, so we just bought 1 new one.  It will be a little less convenient now if we need to change them from one car to another, but oh well,  its cheaper then buying two.  Then, off to the bank to get some cash because all our cards were stolen and we ordered new cards.  Kyle's stuff was even canceled because we are joint on everything, and all our card numbers are the same.

So, they took:
Coach wallet
Coach purse
Broke the Car-seats
broke the window

They did not grab:
My Northface Jacket that was on the seat
My GPS
Best Buy gift cards

They made a huge mess for us, ruined our night, and emotionally really hurt me.  Someone came into MY car and took MY things and violated MY space.  I am, however, thankful that I gave Kyle my drivers license to take into the concert so that we could buy beer (haha) and that I didn't have any cash in there.  They will probably sell my purse and wallet for 20 bucks on the street and use it to buy drugs.  They didn't get anything off my cards, and they don't have anything with my address on it.  With the amount of cars that were hit, they were just looking for cash.  I think that all in all, I lost WAY more then they gained...

Happy Birthday Blake!!

Oh my goodness, where has the time gone?!?  This little courageous boy went from being born with a large amount of challenges to a thriving big boy.  Blake has not skipped a beat... not one!  He is happy, healthy and full of energy.  My little "Honey Bee" as I like to call him, is the most caring child I know.  He has a heart of gold, a sharp mind and a deep sense of feeling.  We are so excited to spend an entire day celebrating Blake with the people that love him the most!

Happy 4th Birthday to our amazing boy!

Blake says "Lets talk about..... Aunt Dawn"

Every night when I put him to bed, he always wants to talk about something.  I don't know if its just to push out bedtime or not, but some of our conversations get really funny.  I remember one when he said " let's talk about why dad has little boobs and yours are big". Haha, yes, my child is the one that asks those questions, and I assure you, I answer them as technically as I can.

Tonight, Blake said " let's talk about Aunt Dawn". My heart sank... Was I going to answer this right? Oh, lord give me the words... I said " what about her? ". Blake said " do you miss her"  "yes" I said, "I miss her everyday.  She was a very special person".  Get ready for this... Blake looks at me, puts his hand on my face and says " she thinks you are special too, and she says not to cry".  My heart stopped, my mouth was wide open, I had a lump in my throat, and tears came running down my face.  Blake then yelled at me "STOP CRYING, she doesn't like seeing you do that".  I realized that I couldn't keep my composure anymore, so I hugged him very tightly, told him that I cry because I miss her, but I will try to remember her with a smile instead, gave him a kiss, and I left his room.  It was just too much for me.  I was shaking, and just stood in silence for a few minutes right outside his door.

Where is Kyle when you need him... At a HOCKEY GAME for goodness sakes! (Emotional wreck right here) Oh my goodness... You know, I don't really know if I believe in spirits (never seen one), and Blake might have just been on story mode and I am seeing something that isn't there, but it gave me chills.  I still have goosebumps and tears thinking... What if?  What if she was there, talking to Blake?  I don't want to sound hokey, but maybe, just maybe, it was her?  I didn't ask Blake any questions, I could hardly speak, but maybe I will ask him tomorrow after I have some time to pull myself together.

I miss her everyday, she is irreplaceable.  Forever in my heart... To be remembered with a smile, and a glass of wine... Which I am going to go pour right now.  I need one after that conversation!